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| Life is never what it seem's anymore...I'm trying to do to many things at once...I feel like I'm losing myself in the middle of it all...I just want to get a job and find myself somewhere in the middle of doing that....Things arent going as planned...So many things I would like to say and cry about but...For some reason I just cant cry, even though I feel it in the back of my throat, ready to explode out of me. I've lost me...I want to find that part of me I loved so much...That part that never let anything or anyone get in, so I never got hurt....I need that part back... April Marie Crawford | | |
| Well it's been a mintue since I have wrote an update..And for that sorry..I have been really busy lately with my mom's whole cancer surgery and the aftermath of it...So far everything has been crazy, but we have had our good days and bad days...But I look forward to the good days..Sometimes it's hard to be happy with everything that is going on...But I'm trying to take the good with the bad...In 7 days Esta my best friend get's out of jail...I can't wait!!! Tomorrow she has a visit at 7:15 pm...It's been pretty boring since she went to jail..I miss her...Yeah she's nuts and most people don't get her...But I love her, she like a sister to me...Steven came to Ohio for a visit...I'm glad he came and stayed the night with me...We had a good time together..Iwish it couold have been better but I tried to make the best of it...I didn't realize how much I missed him until he came...It was good to just sit down and talk to him... Anyways Right at this moment I don't know what else to write about...Sorry this update wasn't much but at least I tried....I have to go help my mom...So until next time..Thanks for reading.. Peace To The Mids April Marie Crawford | | |
| Well thing's have been a bit crazy lately..Let me start by explaining what has been going on...The beginning of last month my friend Kyle and I were hangin out with my friend Esta..And we decided to order some pizza and go to my place and watch scary movies and just kick it...Well Kyle only had enough money to buy 2 pizza's... And I thought that my mom didn't make dinner and that Melissa and her kid's and boyfriend aka Jack wasn't at the house...Well we get there and no one is there except for my mom and Michael and Melissa and her kid's were at the house..So we ate some of the pizza and feed Jay and my mom some pizza..Even though my mom had made some dinner (my bad)...Well Melissa flipped out because she said if she ate some of the pizza and there wouldnt be enough for her man to have any then she wasn't going to eat any of it...Well Kyle told her he didn't mean anything by it and that there was 7 pieces left and who ever wanted it could have it....Me and Kyle and Esta go on a walk to get out of the house because Melissa and Jack were running around the house running their mouths...Well we get back from the walk and Kyle runs inside to see if my mom needed anything...Well Kyle walks into my mom's room to find Melissa running her mouth about him...Once she sees Kyle she starts screaming at him about the pizza..Her and Kyle had a few choice of words to each other...Kyle came outside to tell me that Melissa was in the house running her face and that they both just got into it...Well Kyle end's up leaving because he was so pissed off and couldn't be in the same house as her...Well a month goes by and well they are still fighting with Kyle about the pizza..Writing Kyle threating him and what not..And Kyle wrote them back threating them right back...Well almost a week and a half ago..Me, Kyle and Esta are putting up Kyle's tent in my back yard to make sure all the pieces to the tent are there...I see Melissa and them coming down the hill of the alley...I tell Kyle to stay in the tent and not to say anything to them...So we stay in the tent while Melissa goes into the house...Me and Esta are talking about how we are going to scare the shit out fo each when we go camping...I decide to have Esta to zip up the tent door so Jack and them don't think we are laughing about them...Well Melissa gets in her car and they start pulling out..And Jack starts yelling out the car window has hes pulling out of the drive way saying " Keep lauging you faggot".... "I'm going to beat your fucking ass" "FAGGOT"......By this time I have told Esta to unzip the tent door so I can see more of where the hell Jack was...Jack had stopped the car in the middle of the alley and was out of the car still yelling shit at Kyle....Kyle finally yells back..." I haven't seen you or you girlfriend to say anything to you or her...I haven't done anything to you guys"......Next thing I know jack is walking into the yard telling kyle hes going to smash his face in and what not...Well Kyle being Kyle he starts laughing at him because he looked like a damn retard screaming at a tent...No one could see that we are sitting in the tent....Jack starts running for the tent because Kyle is laughing at him....And Melissa is running after Jack trying to stop him....Jack gets 2 feet away from jumping into the tent after Kyle...Kyle jumps up and gets into a fighting stance..And next thing I know...I shove Kyle over in the tent out of the way from Jack,...And I climb out of the tent after Jack....Me and Jack get into a screaming match...I told him he wasnt touching Kyle because he was being childish and he was nothing but a punk bitch....He told me that I was fat and I needed to try and lose some weight and that he never liked me and blah blah...I told him to fight me and blah blah...But like always he got into the car and kept yelling out the window while driving down the road..And I jogged/ ran through the yard to scarem at him as he past the front of my house...Well Cops got called because during the whole Jack screaming at Kyle he fucked up and threaten to kill Kyle's mom,dad and his sister and Kyle himself...So my mom said for Kyle to call the cops...Cop came and basically said if the stupid shit didn't stop and he got called back to the house we was all going to be arrested and he would let the judge decide what to do with us.....Ever sice that day..My sister has moved out and Honestly it has been nice at my house...It's just me and my mom and lil brother living here...AND I LOVE IT!!!!!!...This past Thursday I went out to a strip joint with my girls...And drank free drinks all night...Then 2 days ago I went to a cookout/ bonfire played cards and had a blast.....Then last night me and Esta camped out in my back yard and freaked each other out...Need less to say everything is going ok and I hope things just keep getting better...the 26th of this month is when my mom has surgery and the 25th is when I have my whole thing done myself....Basically everything is almost starting to look up....Now hopefully I can land myself a damn job...Thanks for reading... Peace To The Mids April Marie Crawford | | |
| well its been a mintue once again since I have actually wrote an update on my life...well my mom has uterine cancer...ever since i heard that my life just crashed around me...i have made a turn for the worst and not for the best...i have so much hate and anger in me that i dont even know what to do with it....im so numb that i cant feel anything but anger that grows each passing day inside me...my mom is my world and if something happens to her i honestly dont know if i can make it with out her...no im not talking about a place to live or anything like that...im talking about the one person on this earth who actually listens to me and knows me like no one else...who would i talk to if she leaves me here...them are few of the thoughts that have been running through my mind...i havent cried yet about it...because i have to be strong for her and everyone else in my house...missy just thinks that once the surgery is over that its all going to go back to the some old shit....but i hate to tell her no its not...we will be having a home health aid coming into the house everyday to take care of my mom...im still lookin for a job...no luck yet.....theres so much going on and feel so alone going through this....i just pray to god he watches over my mom and helps he stay strong during this and gives her the courage to fight this and hope for a better day....well thats all i write for now...to many things going through my head right now to keep writing about this shit...thanks for reading Peace To The Mids April Marie Crawford | | |
| There will be a update, an actual update...Sorry I haven't done it in a while... April ps I promise | | |
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